This year is the year!
The previous entry was posted on September 27th but actually that was only because I was too busy (I don’t remember with what…) to post it on the blog earlier. I must have written it, 2 or 3 months earlier. What happened ? I’m wondering myself…
Sorry, the video is in French, but the following text describes almost the same thing. Besides, I’m not really satisfied with the current special effects. It just doesn’t… fit… The part with the blablabla is not as dynamic as I imagined, I’ll redo it when I have time…
Last year, when I posted this video, I was struggling to balance my private life and my work, mainly negotiating with my boss, the boss of my boss and colleagues in Japan and overseas for that. French colleagues think Japanese colleagues have to do more because they have this reputation. So they maintain that situation. Japanese colleagues don’t try to balance their private life and work, because Work is the priority and opposing a request is BAD! Personally I think that’s immature, on the contrary. I mean, not trying to balance work and personal life or not sharing the workload fairly with all colleagues in Local and overseas, is immature. That might look cool to accept any crazy request, but that is just stupid.
Anyway, discussing with my hierarchy, I discovered that, fixing this unbalance was not only far from being a priority, but also that somehow it was sought. The situation was much more “complicated” than what I thought!
I almost stopped to blog here, in June 2009 (except during the August euphoria). Which means that I was blogging somewhere else. The mere (and selfish) objective of that blog is to improve myself by analyzing my professional (and private) situation, to be a better manager. Some situation cannot be shared publicly. So those are analyzed somewhere else. The result of the analysis though, worse being mentioned here:
From January to June my n+1 and I have several discussions that lead to arguments with our n+2. The contents of the discussions won’t be mentioned here (until the situation changes) but only the conclusion. (the following posts gives also more information about this)
In June, meaning after 6 months of disagreements, I decided to have a 3 people’s meeting with my n+1 and n+2 to clear all these points out and restart from scratch on reasonable and fair basis. 5 hours of meeting were I was exposing to my n+2 the problems (and stomach aches) we were having. 5 hours during which she, my n+1 didn’t said a word, 5 hours during which my n+2 answered all my questions by: If she decided “A” she must have understood that “A” was the only solution!
I was too naive to stop the meeting at the first answer of my n+2. The output of the meeting was only according to him, the fact that I refused to perform as she requested and that I have to learn that when she says or do something, it means: That’s the appropriate thing to say or do. Besides, if she doesn’t do something it means that it does not need to be done. Wouhaha! I wish I had this kind of supreme power…
Since that meeting, everything has changed, and not in the good way. I had to rethink my career plan, my future in my organization and still I was making sure to provide high-level results even not expected. That’s interesting how life put you in situations you did’t think about or even could only imagine in movies.
Now, one year exactly after my new boss has arrived, It’s time to understand that everything has been tried to improve the way we work together.
So, this year is the year during which everything will change! My professional short-term situation, my mid-term career plan and my personal life. I was planning to get married last year but given the events, I postponed until… until I realize that there will always be professional reasons to postpone, so that there is NO professional reasons to postpone.
This year my resolutions are simple:
- Change the professional situation ASAP
- Start to enjoy my life again
For both resolutions, I have an action plan coming in further posts.
During this one year experience, I learned crazy stuff about how a bitter situation at work can make bitter everything! Really Everything! From the guy on TV in the morning until the 3 minutes waiting for the water to bowl. Everything is frustrating when only one is. If this one is your job, you’re doomed! During this one year, I learned that no matter what the problem is, you have to resolve it early to be able to enjoy your life, even if the main part of it has no like with the problem. With no peace of mind you can’t (I can’t) enjoy life fully. Cut the tumor and move on! Waiting is just postponing the resolving of the problem, meaning waiting to enjoy your life. Life is too short to accept to wait, in other words: Don’t lose a part of it, to have he opportunity to enjoy the remaining.
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