That is the main change I need to do. And for that a clear Professional change is necessary. I would say, the first step is to cut the tumor that has been killing me for too long now (That’s a metaphor! Don’t freak out…). Then, along with the progress of that surgery (that’s a metaphor too…) I’ll restart all the personal projects that stopped around June 2009. Marriage, new house, Guitar, video, geek stuff…
The main change during 2009 in my professional situation has been the decrease of motivation. More that a decrease, it was a collapse. Of course I have been given objectives, but for the first time, I was not motivated to exceed them. Last year at the same period, I would describe myself as workaholic. I loved that so much! Too much! I spent twice as much time as now working and was doing three time as much beside, for myself. Not only I was super-active at work but also outside. Going to ski several time a year, hiking, traveling…
Today, I almost don’t do anything beside work. I almost stopped cooking even if I love this, I don’t practice a bit for my guitar lessons, I don’t go out, watch movies, invite friends at home, go on holiday (except a trip to Cambodia organized by 2 friends. I just joined) and I postponed my proposal to Asako (better late than never).
The previous entry was posted on September 27th but actually that was only because I was too busy (I don’t remember with what…) to post it on the blog earlier. I must have written it, 2 or 3 months earlier. What happened ? I’m wondering myself…
Sorry, the video is in French, but the following text describes almost the same thing. Besides, I’m not really satisfied with the current special effects. It just doesn’t… fit… The part with the blablabla is not as dynamic as I imagined, I’ll redo it when I have time…
For the last 3 years, I’ve been doing project management. Many projects, many people. Some have been very difficult some so smooth you feel disappointed the project is over.
I’ve just finished the biggest project I’ve been working on for the last 13 months and I started to list down all the mistakes I’ve done as a project manager. Although the project is a success and the objectives were achieved and exceeded, mistakes have been done. By me, I mean! I won’t get into the detail. I just feel like I have to right down the biggest one to make sure I won’t ever do it again !
I’ve been upset, showed it, and blamed people several times.
I usually get inspiration for what I write here reading other blogs (isn’t what I just said obvious and stupid…). Let’s try this “getting perspective questions” of Glen Allsopp, guest-posted on Zenhabits
If someone had a video tape of your typical day, what would they see?
Based on your current actions and behaviors, where would you expect to be in five years?
1 year ago to the day, I started to work here… I feel like it was 5 years ago. Time flies!
I mainly achieved my personal 1-year-objectives. First, I got hired. I improved my Japanese proficiency considerably. I succeeded the first big project I have been in charge at work. I started to learn guitar. I sent my sister out of my parents’ house (that was the hardest part)… abroad. I visited Rome and Florence with Asako for her birthday…
However, I don’t fill I’m so happy I could die! Actually I feel like I didn’t reach any point, I feel like bored now that I’m done with some stuff… How is that possible? I didn’t even enjoy doing it! Where did I fail?
Ce matin dans le métro je sors mon PC et boss comme tous les matins depuis 2 semaines a nettoyer et à mettre à jour les messages que je postes sur mon blog et mes notes de boulot. Je suis content de ne pas être complètement anéanti par la situation au boulot et qu’il me reste quelques neurones pour réfléchir à comment améliorer les choses, même si je ne fais que ruminer des idées pas bien constructives…
When I was young, we were playing soccer all day long (as long a day can be for a kid) with the guys of my neighborhood, and my friends. The 2 strongest guys were making the teams. They were choosing each one in his turn, who to take starting by the strongest. I was usually taken among the latest… I was used to…Did it change now? Somehow yes. I’m not playing soccer anymore. Or I have not been playing for years. I’m not in a situation where people are choosing their team every single day. I’m working in a company at a defined position and I’m living with my girl friend.
I know I was supposed to have a new habit each month, but I just got to get used to the habit of February. Translating the Japanese mails I receive and read them again and again in the train every night in the train back to home! The result: It’s still very difficult. I simplified it. I only force myself to translate one very important dialogue per week, about 5 mails on the same topic. If I try to translate everything, I will spend all my time doing it and won’t have anytime to work anymore.
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On January 2nd I wrote a post for my 2009 resolutions that I never posted for several fake reasons. Actually I just forgot. I wrote about 10 other posts that I didn’t posted either because I didn’t had the time (somehow). The main reason was that I needed a new blog (that I have now) to post all, but after a month and a half, there is no meaning anymore to post them.
Anyway, here were my resolutions:
The objective of the year is to “Do, the necessary things, well the first time”
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